This is not the most satisfying answer. But... sigh. Get your trauma stuff under control first, kobold, you know better than to try to do the emotional equivalent of trying to run with a badly-healed broken leg. Here is here, now is now; your tribe is safe, and you know where they are, and you can go home whenever you want, there's no reason to panic about that. Kiri is not a tigerperson, and while that fire magic is legitimately pretty terrifying... well, yes, they have been a little faster to suggest using it than you'd like, but it was pretty trivial to talk them out of it, and - if they were going to attack you with it just because they can, there's been plenty of opportunities; you're probably safe.
Okay?
No, not really, but good enough. She's handled trickier situations in worse mental shape and come out okay.
Damn but she could use a hug right now, though.
Anyway.
Given that; given her options; where does she want to be right now?
Home is surprisingly not tempting. She wants a hug, but not nearly as much as she doesn't want to admit defeat, to deal with the smug looks from one faction and concern from the other that always happens when she comes back rattled from one of her trips, to deal with it being that much harder to go out again next time. Going someplace else - one of the private little crannies she's found in her travels - and hanging out for a few days while she gets her head together feels much more appealing. She could even come back here afterward, though that would probably cramp her schedule to the point where she might not be able to come back again like she agreed to. Or... she could stay. It's tempting. That impulse to fling herself directly at whatever she's afraid of will probably kill her eventually, she knows, but it's still there, and so far it hasn't actually steered her wrong, and anyway it's probably not actually going to kill her today.
So... she'll stay. And maybe portal back to one of the prettier winter caves for a while before bed tonight.
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Okay?
No, not really, but good enough. She's handled trickier situations in worse mental shape and come out okay.
Damn but she could use a hug right now, though.
Anyway.
Given that; given her options; where does she want to be right now?
Home is surprisingly not tempting. She wants a hug, but not nearly as much as she doesn't want to admit defeat, to deal with the smug looks from one faction and concern from the other that always happens when she comes back rattled from one of her trips, to deal with it being that much harder to go out again next time. Going someplace else - one of the private little crannies she's found in her travels - and hanging out for a few days while she gets her head together feels much more appealing. She could even come back here afterward, though that would probably cramp her schedule to the point where she might not be able to come back again like she agreed to. Or... she could stay. It's tempting. That impulse to fling herself directly at whatever she's afraid of will probably kill her eventually, she knows, but it's still there, and so far it hasn't actually steered her wrong, and anyway it's probably not actually going to kill her today.
So... she'll stay. And maybe portal back to one of the prettier winter caves for a while before bed tonight.