The author gives some account of herself and family.

[lurkingkobold]

So, that was a party. It was nice, right up until it wasn't - almost like having a tribe again, if she didn't think too closely about it. But then it wasn't, and it really wasn't, and now here we are.

Here, in this case, is the floor of the closet of the room she's been sleeping in, in Miles' house, wrapped up as tight as she can manage in the blanket she took from the bed, waiting for her heart to calm enough that she can go back to sleep after a familiar and expected nightmare. The blanket is wrong - it's missing the smell and stiffness and most importantly the weight of the leather blanket she wishes she had - and the floor is wrong and the acoustics are wrong and being alone, with no other kobolds, is so wrong, and she wishes she could go home, just for a day, just for an hour, just for long enough to let everything be right again for a little while.

She can't, of course. In the light of day, with her new strange almost-tribe, she doesn't even want to, wouldn't want to even if she could. But here, now, in the dark, in this space that is right only in that it's less wrong than her other options, that it's small enough and closed enough that when she wakes, shaking, she can be sure that she is alone, that no one has snuck up on her - here and now, she would trade it all for the smell of cookfire smoke and the sound of a hundred sleeping bodies.

Remembering helps, a little. Even if she can't be there now, tribe is something she had, something she knows like breathing, like heartbeat. She can't be there, but, if she was.... it would sound like this, and it would look like this, and it would feel like this...

Eventually, her breathing slows, and she drifts back to sleep.

Comments

[greatcomposure]

Cordelia definitely got the impression that they should be visiting the kobold's world first thing in the morning.

So she's a little surprised when she wakes up and the kobold isn't already presenting her with a hurried breakfast.

Well, that gives Cordelia time to make a few sensible preparations - if she's going to be coming along on this trip, which she thinks would be the practical choice, it would be a good idea to take a page from her son's book and carry around a device with forum access for translation purposes. She makes an account following Leaf's theme - "Branch" - and picks up a spare not-mirror, and then goes to knock on the kobold's door.

[lurkingkobold]

There is no immediate response.

There isn't much of a delayed response, either, though if Cordelia is listening carefully she may hear some muffled noises from inside the room.

[greatcomposure]

She waits.

[lurkingkobold]

There are more muffled noises, and the sound of the closet door opening, and a low hiss, and then the door to the room opens.

The kobold is still mostly entangled in the blanket from the bed, which is otherwise untouched. It's somewhat hard to tell, with the fur, but it looks like she didn't sleep well at all last night.

[greatcomposure]

"Good morning," says Cordelia, typing/talking the same way Miles tends to, although she's not quite as good at it on account of having no practice. "I made a forum account. It's still very important to visit your world, right?" She nods indicatively in the direction of the backpack sitting at the foot of the bed.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold blinks, and moves back into the room, leaving the door open. She trundles toward the backpack, unwrapping herself from the blanket as she goes, and tosses it into a heap on the bed before retrieving her mirror from a pocket on the bag.

"Is important," she nods, once she's listened to the message. "If do of come, do of warm of clothes - small of maybe of snow." Her own cold-weather outfit, a longer skirt and a warm poncho, is laid out on a chair next to the bed.

[greatcomposure]

"All right," she says/types. "I'll get my jacket, then."

She goes and gets her jacket. It's nice to be dressing for practicality, as opposed to dressing for Vor female fashion; she never did quite get the hang of gowns, and by this point expects she never will.

[lurkingkobold]

By the time she gets back, the kobold is dressed and nearly ready to go, but looking through a stack of papers for something. After a few more moments, she finds what she's looking for, and presents it to Cordelia - it turns out to be a fairly realistic colored pencil drawing of a vine with serrated, yellow-veined leaves climbing on a more abstracted rocky surface. "Am do of need of plant, is reason of go."

[greatcomposure]

Cordelia studies the drawing, and nods, and hands it back.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold returns the paper to the pile, and wordlessly leads the way through the house and to Cordelia's demiplane, radiating cranky-stressed-determined the whole way.

[greatcomposure]

And Cordelia casts a gate to the same cave that Miles retrieved the kobold from originally.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold gestures for Cordelia to wait, and steps through.

The cave is practically untouched, in the light from the portal; some scavenger has come through to pick at the rabbit corpse, but otherwise everything is the same. She takes a moment to check on the mysterious magic thing (unchanged) and to reacquaint herself with the path to the exit, then gestures for Cordelia to step through, reaching to take her hand before the portal closes and they lose their light source.

[greatcomposure]

She takes the kobold's hand and pockets her not-mirror and closes the gate.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold guides them deftly to the tunnel that leads up and out of the cave, only a few seconds' travel. The tunnel itself is dark, but not the pitch-black of the rest of the space; Cordelia might find it a little claustrophobic but should have no trouble climbing through.

[greatcomposure]

She manages it just fine.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold follows.

The tunnel lets out under a stone outcrop, and beyond that is Cordelia's first proper look at the kobold's world. It's... probably disappointingly earthlike, actually. On closer inspection, very earthlike, in fact - the patch of forest they're in is made up mostly of oak and walnut trees, with an apple tree visible a little ways off, still holding onto a few apples.

It's a little later in the day here than it was on Barrayar, but early enough that the frosty air has more to do with that than the season, and the bits of sky that are visible through the trees are clear.

The kobold steps out from under the stone, walks a few yards away through the underbrush to a deer trail, and looks back on the cave entrance, trying to work out how the land here is formed and where other stone formations might be, nearby. She's clearly not trying to hide, but it's still fairly easy to lose track of her in the dappled light.

[greatcomposure]

Cordelia makes an intrigued 'huh' sound when she observes all the Earthlike vegetation.

[lurkingkobold]

The kobold looks to Cordelia when she hears the noise, but goes back to what she's doing when it's apparently not directed at her, giving Cordelia some more time to examine the scenery.

After a few minutes, she makes an attention-getting 'querk' sound and heads off down the trail at a moderate pace, checking after a moment to make sure that Cordelia is following.

[greatcomposure]

Indeed she is.

[lurkingkobold]

Good.

The kobold leads the way down the trail, which runs fairly parallel to the rocky hillside they came out of; she slows, when they come to patches of plants growing there, and goes to investigate more closely a few times, but doesn't find what she's looking for.

The trail itself is narrow, but reasonably easy to follow, with only the occasional intruding branch or dangerous root or stone in the way. The kobold seems to be familiar and comfortable with leading people in this sort of context, holding aside the branches and pointing out the tripping hazards without any particular effort.

The trees continue to be familiar, except for one especially large-trunked type that appears occasionally. The underbrush is a little more mixed; something like two-thirds or three-quarters of the low plants are identifiable, with the remainder being similar to Earth's plant life, but not any recognizable species.

After nearly an hour and a half, the trail veers away from the hillside, and the kobold pauses to consider her options.

[greatcomposure]

Cordelia has been quietly enjoying the slightly nostalgic mental effort of categorizing all these plants. The hike is slightly nostalgic too, although in her Survey days she never had such an effective trail guide.

She pauses when the kobold does, and waits patiently.

[lurkingkobold]

After a little contemplation, the kobold makes a grumpy sound, and says "wait, am look." She then heads to the hillside and starts climbing.

[greatcomposure]

Well, then, Cordelia will wait.

[lurkingkobold]

It takes several minutes for the kobold to return, and when she does, some of her grumpiness has transformed into frustration and worry.

"Is big of hole," she nods in the direction the trail was headed. "No of safe of do, big of travel of." She sighs.

[greatcomposure]

Cordelia gets out her not-mirror to reply.

"Well, that sounds annoying. Do you think we can fix this problem with magic? I could try to change the hole so it's safe to walk across, or cast fly on both of us so we can fly over it."